Three weeks ago, I was ordained an elder in Grace Communion International. As I prepared for this third covenantal milestone in my life, I couldn’t help but wonder what new adventures await. I also looked back over the events in my life leading to that moment. When Joe and I got married, he was what was then called a local elder, with not much responsibility in the congregation. We both worked full time and had no clue about what was on the horizon.
When his dad became president of GCI, we were asked to move to California so he could work in church administration. Skipping ahead, when we went through our monumental and earth-shaking changes in doctrine – in everything really – our world was turned upside down and we began learning about grace. New possibilities opened for women as we discovered women’s ministry and saw hints (could it be?) that women might become pastors.
I often said I was just standing around with my hands in my pockets and God looked at me and said, let’s go. He took my hand and off we went. I wish I could say I boldly went where no woman had gone before, but I was less than bold as I often hid in the ladies’ room before speaking at women’s conferences, asking, like Jonah, to be let off the hook. But he always said he would go up on the stage with me, so I went.
In all that time and in all those experiences, I never felt as though I had received an assignment or a mission from him. God was leading me, and I followed as best I could, but it was always together, always knowing he was right there to hold me up, help me and strengthen me. The difference is grace. He didn’t give me a job and then sit back and wait to see how I would do, giving me good or bad marks according to my performance. He filled me with the faith, strength and courage of Jesus and we did it together.
As I enter this new chapter of life, I know nothing has changed. He is still holding my hand, filling me with grace and faith to continue to go, perhaps even boldly, where I’ve never gone before. He continues to be my Source. Wherever we go, it will be together, with me holding on tight, laughing as he winks and says, let’s do this!